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5 Valentine’s Date Night Ideas

With St. Valentine’s Day fast approaching, couples start scrambling to make plans for a romantic evening with their significant other.  For those who are overwhelmed by the idea of braving crowded restaurants and straining to hear their own thoughts, let alone the conversation, or who have limited funds/ babysitting, one of these five ideas might be just what the love doctor ordered.

1.  Re-create Your First Date (Or Something Like It)

You don’t have to be a stickler for the details (unless you want to), just re-create the general mood.  You could go to the same places, or try to capture aspects of the experience at home by serving the same foods, wearing similar clothes, etc.

For my husband and I, our first date was eating pizza at a little cafe in the piazza outside of Santa Ciara in Assisi.  There may have been some rather eccentric individuals roaming the streets.  Namely, Jesus, and a bushy haired flutist we dubbed “il maestro.”  In case you are wondering, “Jesus” likes to eat pepperoni pizza.  I swear I am not making this up.

See! I have the pictures to prove it.

 

2.  Baby Why Don’t We Just Dance?

You could go out to a more formal venue, or you could have a dancing date night at home, Josh Turner style:

You can pull out your nicest dancing attire, make a playlist of all of “your” songs, and dance the night away.  Promise me that you will include a tango on your list.  Just trust me on this one.

 

3.  Take a Photographic Stroll Down Memory Lane

Take the opportunity to pull out pictures from the early days of your relationship, wedding pictures, slideshows, or video.  Look at them together

In my husband and my case, we fell in love during a study abroad in Europe, so there is ample photographic documentation of that time.

Picture from our first date. After leaving Jesus and “Il Maestro” we hiked up to a castle. Wowzer, we look so young.

4.  Game Night

If you are feeling social you could have friends over for a game night.  If you aren’t feeling particularly romantic, you could all engage in a cut throat game of Settlers of Catan.  On the other hand, if you are wanting to do something more sentimental (and not haggle over the price of sheep all night) you could play the Dating Divas discrete, Not So Newlywed Game .

If memory serves my husband kicked my butt at that one last time.

If you want to have some game night fun, with just your spouse, there are some *ahem* variations on poker, or chess that could be fun. 😉

5. Night at the Park

For those willing to brave the cold, or who are fortunate to live in a more temperate climate, head to the park with some blankets and hot cocoa to do some stargazing.  While you are there you can take turns asking these questions which are supposed to help accelerate feelings of intimacy and connection through vulnerability.

If you can’t arrange for babysitting, but really want to get out of the house, grab your baby monitor and a glass of wine and head to your driveway to sit in the car.  My husband picked up this tip from our neighbors who have been married almost thirty years.  It gives you a slightly different, and perhaps less stressful, place to sit, talk, and decompress with each other.

That’s all I got!  What are your plans for St. Valentine’s Day?  Any fun date night ideas that you care to share?  Tell me about them in the comments!

I am linking up with Jenna at Callherhappy.com for five favorites!

 

7 Things that are Saving My Sanity

7 Things That Are Saving My Sanity Right Now

7 Things that are Saving My Sanity

Like most people, I have to fight the urge to complain.  When things get more and more difficult, I just want to vent about all of the things that make me feel like I am going to lose it big time.  

Lately I have noticed something: venting doesn’t help all that much.

Now don’t get me wrong, it is super important to have friends and family to confide your troubles to, that is healthy.  What I have found to be counterproductive for myself, however, is searching for opportunities to vent to my husband, or mentally writing Facebook posts (that I never publish) about how dang hard life is right now.   These type of mental habits are essentially negative feedback loops which are training my mind to be on the lookout for more things that suck, driving me even more nuts.

Instead of building such negative mental habits, I would rather take inventory of the things that are saving my sanity right now.

Reading: I’ve made no secret about it, I LOVE to read.  Immersing myself in a good story, or learning new things feeds my soul and recharges my batteries.  Fiction can offer a wonderful escape from the never ending dance of laundry, dishes, cleaning and diapers, while non-fiction can offer me tools to better understand the world and others.

Writing:  Perhaps even more than reading, writing puts me in a state of flow where I am completely absorbed in the task at hand and deriving great enjoyment from it.  Shaping words and phrases, molding them into the form I desire, its rather like being a child at play, totally engrossed in their work.  I may not always like the end product, but the process is very relaxing.

Side note: Does anyonelse have arguments with characters that they are creating in their heads?   I just started a short story yesterday, and one of the characters keeps being a real snot.  I keep scolding her, but unfortunately she don’t seem to be listening. . . that’s not how her character is supposed to play out!

Prayer:  Though I haven’t been doing enough of this as of late, it has helped immensely in calming anxieties.

Babysitting:  My sister has been staying with us for the past few weeks.  It has been so nice to be able to do things like grocery shopping without two little ones in tow.  I swear they tag team sneaking things into my cart.  In addtion my husband has been watching the kids for an evening about once a week so I can get together with friends AND have conversations with complete sentances.  It has been wonderful.

UPDATE: The kids and I have a GI bug today.  Help has been indispensible.  On that note, lets add disposable diapers to the list of things saving my sanity.

Date Nights:  Man are these helpful!  I crumble quickly without enough time with my beloved.  It is hard to make the time for these, but man are they worth it!

Counselling: This one can be embarassing to talk about, but I wanted to share in case it helped others get the push they needed to seek help.  About once a week I have been going to a counsellor for treatment of moderate chronic depression and a mild anxiety disorder.  For months I was too proud to seek help, thinking that because I haven’t been through any huge trauma, that I should be able to handle my problems just fine.  I was wrong.

At counselling I have been able to get an outsider’s perspective, learn techniques for controlling my biological reactions, and work on changing the negative mental scripts that I have been using for years.  Slowly but surely, things are getting better.

Friends:  I have been abundantly blessed with a group of close friends.  Most of us have few (if any) family members in the area and we have become each other’s support network.  These are friends who know they can stop by whenever, to share a beer or glass of wine and just hangout.  They are ok with the toys strewn all over the floor and the half naked toddlers running around.  They even help me clean things up!  We can and do call each other when we need a hand, or emotional support.  I can’t imagine life without them.

Hat tip to Anne from ModernMrsDarcy.com for sharing the idea a few months back in her newsletter about looking for the things that are saving your sanity.  I had started writing this post back at the begining of the month.  I am glad I didn’t finish it when I had planned, because Anne is hosting a linkup today for people to share what is saving their sanity right now.  Check out her post and the link-up at her blog!

 

What is saving your life/sanity right now?  Tell me about it in the comments!

Also, on a personal note, I would appreciate it if you could spare a prayer or two for me tomorrow.  I have a doctor’s appointment where I will get some test results back; it is most likely nothing too serious, but the possibility of a thyroid tumor or Hashimoto’s disease was mentioned at the last appointment.  Thanks!

 

 

 

 

 

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“Pure as Driven Snow”: An Attempt at Cognitive Reassociation

One winter morning last month, I awoke to a world transformed.  An ice storm had come and encircled every detail of the landscape.  Pine trees appeared aged, stooping under their new found weight, while bare branches seemed to youthfully adopt their new radiant attire.

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All pictures in this post are my own.

Initially, I glanced unimpressed at this scene, viewing it as another dreary winter day.  I envisioned the ice holding sleeping blooms of the trees hostage, stifling them, suffocating them.  I saw no beauty against the background of the grey sky.

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Then I recalled a similar day several years ago.  A young woman, just past the cusp of adulthood was out enjoying just such a day.  She and her friends shrieked in delight as they struggled to maintain their balance, catching hold of each other.  Peppering the outbursts of joy was childlike wonder at the beauty surrounding them.  Each tried to capture a piece of what that day meant, one through photos, another through a poem.

A brief search produced the poem my friend had written, and a more extensive one produced the pictures I took.  As I savored the words and photos I realized in this very moment I am faced with a choice.

I can choose to be burdened by winter and groan under its weight, like the pine trees, or to revel in the myriad possibilities for beauty that today brings.  Perhaps I can reclaim the part of my youth when the sight of snow filled me with wonder at the strange new world it brought, and the prospect of playing in the wonderland it created was a cause for joy.

 

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Imagery is powerful.  It speaks to us in the recesses of our hearts, touching on memories and emotions that have woven themselves into the very fabric of our identity, bringing them to the forefront of our minds, often without  our conscious decision to do so.

When the imagery is associated with positive emotions and memories, the experience can be pleasant such as the smell of pine at Christmas time, a photo from your wedding day, the sound of a newborn baby crying for the first time.

Unfortunately, when the imagery is associated with a past trauma or occasion of pain, one can be flooded in the present moment with the pain of past experiences.  Sometimes you can avoid the triggers, but other times they are things that must be faced.

When facing imagery that evokes a pronounced negative experience, it can be helpful to take a step back and try to shift the associations away from the negative experiences to more positive ones.  This can be done in a few different ways.  One can reflect on the negative image and try to discover/rediscover positive aspects of it.  Another approach would be to try to make new happy memories to associate with it.

One example of how Catholics frequently use this technique to great effect, is when sufferings are re-framed as an invitation to join Christ on His way of sorrows, to pick up the cross you are presented and with open arms to suffer with the Beloved.

The first part of the article shows an attempt to cognitively shift my associations with snow in particular and winter in general from my negative perceptions and memories to more positive ones.  In my case, I am working to change my associations with snow and ice from feelings of being trapped, helpless, and afraid.

I was in two car accidents because of snow; in one the car flipped and I found myself suspended upside down in the air, trying to figure out how to escape without falling on broken glass.  I had only been driving at 25 mph.  Ironically, this accident was less traumatic than the other, because I was an adult when it happened.

After the first accident I was scared of leaving the house if there was any snow on the ground (which in the snowbelt of NE Ohio is pretty much all winter).  Every time I was in a car I feared that we would get in an accident, and this time someone would die.  Snow represented a very real fear of death.

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For me this has been a challenging process.  Frankly, I am far from where I want to be in the journey.  I have been able to shift some of my perceptions, but many images still are defaced with the scars my mind projects onto them.

The good thing about scars though, is that they are wounds in the process of healing; they don’t bleed or throb anymore.  The One Who accompanies me in this journey has scars of His own.  Scars which fill me with great hope, for they speak to me of love’s power to heal even the most painful of wounds.    100_0577

 

 

None of this is intended as psychological or medical advice.  I am not trying to play psychologist, just trying to pass along information that I have found helpful.  

 

Have you ever used cognitive reassociation?  Did you find it helpful?  

If you found this article helpful, share it with others!

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In the Comparison Game No One Leaves a Winner

“The invitations you sent out for Sammy’s birthday were so cute,” a friend complimented at a recent play date.  “It is so sweet that you are doing a themed party.  It makes me think that we should put more effort into our children’s birthday parties.  They are so inadequate.”

“Um . . . thank you.” I stammered.  “I wasn’t originally planning on doing a theme, but Sammy asked me and wanted to be very involved in the planning.  It entertained him and kept him out of trouble when we designed the invitations together.  I totally wouldn’t have done it if he wasn’t so interested.  And you are selling yourself short!  We all have a lot of fun at the birthday parties you host.  There is nothing superior about having a themed party, especially if it drives you crazy in the process!”

This type of conversation has recurred a few more times in recent weeks with different friends and over different topics.  One friend pondered whether home made Halloween costumes were superior to store bought. Another claimed she was “unmotivated” for not working on organizing her sewing and crafting supplies and fixing up her house (while pregnant).

Throughout each conversation I was puzzled as to why they were judging themselves so harshly.

Don’t they know???  Don’t they know that I compare myself with them and find that I come up lacking?  One friend is in great shape, another incredibly intelligent (and an AMAZING cook), a third is an engaging teacher, who really invests herself in her students.  There are so many things that they are doing better than me.

Don’t they see how talented they are?

In the comparison game everyone eventually leaves a looser, distracted from using all of their unique talents and qualities.

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No one has the time or capacity to be good at everything, no matter how it might appear on the outside or from one’s carefully controlled internet presence.  Time spent on one thing is time not spent on another.   We need to invest our time wisely and prioritize it on the things that play to our strengths.

So, please my friends (both in real life, or online), please don’t spend your energy regretting all of the things that you aren’t doing (or aren’t doing as well as someone else), and instead reflect on your gifts and use them in all the ways that only you can.  If you enjoy planning themed birthday parties with your kids, or sewing them costumes, that’s great.  If you don’t enjoy doing these things, then that is awesome too, and nothing to be ashamed about.

You are an amazing unrepeatable individual.  You have a combination of talents, dreams and passions that has not been seen previously in history.  You have been put on this earth for a purpose and have a mission no one else can accomplish.  Please don’t spend your time comparing yourself to others.

You are capable of doing great things.  You are doing great things.  Even if it is something as simple as selflessly giving to your loved ones day in and day out or as small as keeping your cool when the toddler has drawn on the wall with a permanent marker.  Especially then.

The most important part of “greatness” is loving without counting the cost.

And that my friends is something I see you doing incomparably well.